Dia tangguh study...!

Ok....this is sad....dia nk tangguh blaja! Mr.A nk tinggal aku sorang...blaja kt puncak... Ermmm....sedihhhh.....tak tahu nk ckp apa dah...knapa dgn aku nih....ape yg aku rasa ni...argghhh.....

Confuse

Ok..confuse..there so many things in my mind right now.... Why? Because of anak cik Nordin yg drive neo putih plat DBT...who is he? Dia la yg mama abahku inginkn utk dijadikan menantu....!!!!

But deep down in my heart...ade jgak rasa jatuh suka pd dia....since i saw him during our degree time...time tu he's already have gf and me---» single.... Now when mama n abah taw yg dia dah single..lagilah dorang suka....

Last nite..mama tanye lagi pasal dia...everytime ade masa..mesti kluar psl dia....since they know his status...serba salah dibuatnya...hanya mampu berdoa...

Rasa bersalah menyelubungi diri...trutama pd the guy dat im dating with rite now mr.W...how to tell him yg mama abah hanya nampak mr.A je...tiada jodoh kami kah...im afraid...if bkeras utk bsama mr.W but mama xsuka...kang jdi anak derhaka...tk berkat...

Argghh....stressssss.....pening nk pk....hanya mampu berdoa..semoga Tuhan tunjukkan jalan...

Till next post...XOXO

My Parent 'Like' My Boyclassmate

Assalamualaikum....

Hari ini nak story pasal somebody....he's one of my friend....we're being friends since degree lagi...but at that time he's still someone boyfie....or dengan kata lain...da ada awek....same like me...at that time laa....sekarang still pegang status 'single and availabe' (macam nk promote diri plak kan..hik3)

Ok back to the story...lately..not lately sgt..mama and abah keep talking about jodoh..about tunang...married..bla bla bla....sbb i'm 25 years old now....oh my...but ade apa pada numbers kannn....only numberssss...(ayat nk sedap hati)...dorang pun fikir sbb tak lama lagi their daughter ni nk habis belajar dah...they keep talking..bila nk bawak jumpa bf...the problem is...i have someone but ssh nk cakap..its all about the status..my family status...my status as master's student...ermmm...

Few months ni i've been close with this guy...dia biasa...dr segala2 nya...but the problem is..the parent..dorang, especially mama keep saying that...cari lah yg setaraf dengan kelulusan..yg blh bimbing dalam ajaran agama..yg blh diharapkan utk jaga anak tunggal dia ni....abah? ok ja..tp dalam ok2 dia pun...he said that there would be different between us...abah terima siapa2 pun..yg penting that guy must always love me..and blh jaga smpai bila2....pendek kan cerita...i hv to find someone else yg menepati ciri2 yg dorang nak...its difficult bila kita anak tunggal..everything kena terbaikkkk....

(this is what they want know...)

Nak dijadikan cerita, talk about my friend tu, dia pun sambung master..and we're in the same class...mama abah dah kenal dia..since degree coz kitaorang pernah satu group untuk subjek group research...hanya kami berdua sahaja yg sambung master....and yg paling mengejutkan...mereka sukakan dia....nak dia jadi menantu!!!!! how come....aduhh...pening fikirrrr....berbelah bagi..serba salah..everything comes in my mind since that time...

Everytime balik kg. they will ask about him...ok..i'll name him as Mr.A..the reason mama abah suka dia...sbb kami setaraf...belajar sama2..lama dah kenal...mama suka tengok dia..abah suka cara dia...kebetulan kami sekampung..and saya baru tahu..dia pernah sekolah agama..n his family also dari golongan terpelajar..bila distory2kan pada mama, lagi lah mama suka....siap suruh tackle lagi...both of them keep telling me to tackle him!

But what about the guy that i've closed to rite now...how about him plak...arrghh...org kata, pilihan ibu bapa lebih baik dari pilihan sendiri..kerana lebih berkat...yes, i admit it..and sampai sekarang saya berpegang pada kata2 tu...after mama abah said that, u can find another guy yg setaraf dgn kita, i keep in my mind and told them...klu macam tu, mama abah carikan lah...siapa2 pun i will accept...:)

Till next post..i'll story about my feeling...:)

Daaaa...XOXO

It's Been A While...

Assalamualaikum....seperti title di atas...its been a while..a while ke...rasa-rasa nya sudah lama tak update blog kan...and almost one year becoming master's student....tinggal lagi 1 sem utk disudahkan....mcm2 perkara yang terjadi...good, bad..even worst...but i've managed it well...took it as a challenged in life....with my mama's support...best friend...especially Yuni...dia la tempat utk mengadu..ke sana ke mari...di Kuala Lumpur ni..always be by my side..thanks Yu...

( me with Yuni...after my class..pick her up and terus ke Kg.Baru for dinner)

Haaa....talking about my master...Alhamdulillah....syukur...dh lepas 2 semester...result pun Alhamdulillah..semua lulus...btl ape Madam Siti Hajar ckp dlu, yg penting diri sendiri...klu betul2 nak buat, kena yakin...and i have proved it....